Falling into the Darkness

In the past week things seem to have taken a turn for the worst, throwing me head first into a pit of  comfortable misery. As I come face to face with the reality of how far I have let myself fall,
It hit me just how easy it is to slide into a hole of self-pity and self-judgement and general madness. It is a place i don't want to go again. For some reason the downward spiral towards sadness and depression is quick to come, forcing you into this dark cocoon where you feel like thats where you belong and where you want to stay.
Often it is so much easier to wallow win this darkness than to face the reality that life does go on, the world doesn't stop turning and neither do you stop growing. After coming to this realisation I slept better than I have in the past few weeks. I know it wont be easy but I'm willing to do it and succeed. My happiness lies in my own hands so I'm going to make it happen.

Don't let your stresses get you down, your worries be a shovel that you use to dig yourself into a pit. Always remember to pray and keep the faith. The light at the end of the tunnel is there for those who want to see it.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to everybody. I'm sure everyone has made their resolutions and gone through that "new year, new me" phase. Anyway the previous year had been a tough one but I guess all that I can hope for is a breakthrough this new year. One can never turn away blessings and prosperity and success and all the good stuff.
One of my resolutions is to stress less and be a better, happier human being (it counts as one), anyway I have always been a person who worries a lot and stresses about things I really have no control over. It is so hard for me to let go and allow God to take control and steer my path. This year that is one of the things I would like to improve on, just stress less and actually just enjoy the present as it is, bringing happiness to all that I come across. Wishful thinking for the most part but I'm sure it can be done.
So with great uncertainty I face this year trying not to worry and trying not to stress, holding thumbs, crossing finger and toes, praying earnestly and keeping the faith that it will be an epic year full of happy memories, lessons learnt and all good things and the strength to conquer all the bad that may come along with all the good things but above all else I wish for a year of happiness.

Peace, love and happiness for 2014
Ellie