Believing

Believing is accepting something as true or real. I often find myself longing for my childhood where my child like innocent allowed me to believe in anything. Sadly, as we grow older we shed the innocence as we get engulfed by the worldly influences, we stop believing in magic and wonder and people and even ourselves. We forget who we are in the midst of the chaos and the continuous hustle, striving to reach unattainable standards slowly drowning our own potential in a pool of self-doubt. Consumed  by the set standard we start to feel we aren't good enough and generally just not enough to be the people we are meant to be.
Believing in ourselves is the first step to getting anything, knowing you are capable of copious amount of greatness, believing with all your heart and soul and never giving up on yourself.

Everyday we turn ourselves into shadows of our greater selves, mere slaves to the lie that we can't be better or do better. On days were it would seem like things are at their worst and that the pit you have dug yourself into is so deep and theres no way you can dig yourself out... believe. Believe in you, believe in whats in you believe without a doubt that things will get better and believe in your world. Its not easy to throw years of submission to the voice inside that was always telling you that you aren't good enough, but fight and believe.

Believe in others, believe in life, believe in love, believe in truth, believe in happiness, believe in your dreams and believe in yourself.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

The Fear

For the past few years I've been on a journey to "find myself" or so I keep saying. In all honesty I haven't been on a journey to anywhere or doing anything other that diving deeper and deeper into isolation. Why would anyone want to subject themselves to such isolation you may ask? I have asked myself that question several times in the stillness of the night why I would do such a thing. The answer was always there, but typical of one in denial I chose to ignore it. The answer is quite simple, in fact it is too simple and terrifying. The simple truth is that I am afraid.
Afraid of opening myself up to the world afraid of leaving this cocoon I have built around myself, afraid to leave the comfort and security of these walls I have built around myself to keep the world outside and keep myself safe on the inside.

This crippling fear has lead me to push people away without regret, to live in a world full of paranoid delusions. In the last couple of months things have changed and I admit I am a happier person, but alas comes the fear again gripping my heart with it icy cold fingers threatening to send me back to the prison of isolation which i have slowly dug my way from.

But in the end I guess I have to make a choice: to succumb to the fear again or just cast away the weight of the fear bearing down on me and emerge as a better human being, ready to take on the world so to speak.
In the end fear is the just irrational manifestation of facing the unknown. No matter what you fear, theres no time like the present to move away from the darkness that binds us to the shadows and step into the light of the newness that will engulf you once you face your fears.

Always remember that every journey starts with a single step. So take that step, take that chance and face those fears and they will stop being fears and simply be steps in the ladder that leads to a better and happier you.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

Stuck In a Rut

We all end up in places where we get comfortable and don't really want to move on, be it relationships that suffocate us, jobs we hate it all seems to stem from us being to comfortable and afraid of change. Our  inane ability to hide our heads in the sand and just accept things as they are, refusing to change and see a bigger picture. We accept that change is good and yet continue to live our lives as they are with toxic relationships and doing things that don't really make us happy.

We might argue that we are all hustling to get to a certain point in our lives and at that point the bigger picture will emerge and we will be able to see past the struggle and be able to do the things that makes us happy then. But what of the present? We are all guilty of looking so far into the future that we forget to live in the present, not wanting to see things for what they are, blatantly refusing to acknowledge the lives that we lead at the moment and the way they will shape the future.

Change is quite inevitable and whether by your hand or someone else's everything changes eventually, I guess we just have to take the leap of faith and just be. Be in control of our destiny, be in control of our lives and how we let people influence our lives and who we allow to influence our lives.

We need to be brave enough to be able to breathe out and let things go, let go of all the things holding us back, let go of all the demons that try to control us and be at peace with ourselves and be able to step out and walk into the next chapter in our lives without fear, without burden as fearless individuals ready to see each chapter through.

Lets all choose to be happy in every aspect in our lives. Every journey always begins with a single step.

Peace, love and happiness

Ellie 

Anime-nia

Corny title, I know but everything else takes  backseat when it comes to talking about my "nerdiest" obsession of all time which is anime. There isn't much difference between anime and  cartoons. But have you seen the detail and the graphics on anime? Granted most girls are big busted, with thin waists and curves for days but it has awesome graphics. Anyway my all-time favourites would have to be bleach and devil may cry.

I happened upon my obsession by chance some years ago with my first experience being Basilisk Koga Ninpo Cho, from that point i was hooked.

Anime has been an important part in my life, even my love for horror movies does not compare, although cartoons were my starting point, anime has touched my very soul. Anime has allowed me to go to that awesome place where my mind can be free and i can escape to life within the glorious anime. I really enjoy watching anime, i can lock myself in and watch all seasons, all episodes all day and all night( i wish) and get so engrossed in it that the world outside ceases to exist for me.

Anyway I'm still on the lookout for new anime to watch and enjoy. I need to feed my addiction

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

Ramblings of an idle mind

Today i found myself wondering if I was happy and if i was living or merely existing, if i was happy or content with the way my life was at this point. What is living? Is it going through the day finding an adventure in everyday, something new and fascinating, living an inspiring life, living your dream perhaps.

I think I'm simply existing, waking up to each day and going through the motions and just ending each day with a silent prayer of thanks for another day. This however doesn't mean that I don't get to appreciate the wonders of live, its complexities and priceless joys. Existing is not necessarily a bad thing though.

This means I can look back on my days with a smile and be happy about how each day turned out as I faced a new challenge or dealt with something new, I am grateful for days like this where I have friends and family who make me smile, laugh or even annoy me sometimes. I am grateful that I am able to enjoy the warm sunshine and walk barefoot in the rain.

I believe that I am content because no matter how my day ends there is always something that happened during my day that made me smile and thats what happiness is to me, to be able to smile or laugh genuinely and infect those around me with laughter.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

Drum Beat Dreamz

How cool is this drum kit? The skulls just seem to make it so "rockstarry".

I have always wanted to own a set of drums, for some odd reason I have a fantasy of starting my own band called "The Bandits". It's all well and good but, I don't even know how to play. It seems like a cool thing to try, something new to embark upon.

I am sort of on a quest to conquer fears and do what I have always wanted to do with no regrets. Honestly some of these things are easier said than done. Easy to get excited about and yet when faced with the mammoth task of actually having to do it, you get weak in the knees and break out in a cold sweat. Learning how to play the drums though is one of the things I'm actually looking forward to doing. Still trying to find a place where I can get lessons but I'm pretty excited.

I can actually see myself playing a drum solo on these, tongue peeping out the corner in concentration. Ha ha well who knows right.

Anyway enough ramblings

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

NEWNESS

Well this is a spanking brand new project I have decided to embark upon. Strangely it has always been in my mind but, I have always been more than a little self-conscious about doing something of the sort. Basically this is "crash course" of sorts on what to expect from this blog. Common Intricacies is an exploration of my life, things i like, don't like and mostly things I find interesting. I'll delve into a little bit of everything from art to music, to food and whatever else crops up in this day to day rat race we call life. 

My dry sense of humor will definitely rear it's head so hope that brings a chuckle out of you. It won't always be rainbows and sunshine but hey life never really isn't either right?

Well here's to my first official post,so excited and looking forward to many more.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie