Sunday, January 19, 2014

Falling into the Darkness


In the past week things seem to have taken a turn for the worst, throwing me head first into a pit of  comfortable misery. As I come face to face with the reality of how far I have let myself fall,
It hit me just how easy it is to slide into a hole of self-pity and self-judgement and general madness. It is a place i don't want to go again. For some reason the downward spiral towards sadness and depression is quick to come, forcing you into this dark cocoon where you feel like thats where you belong and where you want to stay.
Often it is so much easier to wallow win this darkness than to face the reality that life does go on, the world doesn't stop turning and neither do you stop growing. After coming to this realisation I slept better than I have in the past few weeks. I know it wont be easy but I'm willing to do it and succeed. My happiness lies in my own hands so I'm going to make it happen.

Don't let your stresses get you down, your worries be a shovel that you use to dig yourself into a pit. Always remember to pray and keep the faith. The light at the end of the tunnel is there for those who want to see it.

Peace, love and happiness
Ellie

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